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had the surgery because she "couldn't live a lie." Why is truth equated with genitals while the psychological "self" is considered a "lie"? The real “lie" was living in the masculine role when he didn't want to, wasn't happy and dreamt all the time of being a woman.

A further proof of his not being a TS is in the quote that while she has met and corresponded with quite a few, "by and large they are among the unhappiest people on the face of the earth.” The original reviewer says "Miss Morris sounds as if she is satisfied with simply being a woman, as if her new condition contained no particular imperatives of its own." The author's own words and the interpretation of her colleague and of the book reviewer all point the same way-her change was solely for genderal reasons. He was just another FP like the rest of us and he could have all that he now has and expects to get if he had just gone the gender route like I did. Not that I'm anything marvelous, but I AM RIGHT and I know it from living it. I hope that any among you still toying with the surgery bit will think not just twice... but all that may be necessary to realize the truth. Your SELF is in your head and YOU have to develop it. The surgeon doesn't work on that end of you so whatever is in your head be- fore surgery is still there afterward and whats more whatever is NOT there that should be is still missing after the surgeon gets through.

It is discouraging and it's tragic to see how much hope and expectation goes into the sex change surgery as though that was a cure-all for all the insecurities, neuroses, frustrations, inadequacies and fears resident in the head of the prospect. Why is it that such people think what is between their legs makes so much difference? Who even knows (let alone cares) except a doctor or a sex partner? If you aren't gay and aren't looking to go to bed with a male, of what value is the new "equipment,,? If you are after that you've been gay all along whether you admitted it or not. But I've watched too many go down the drain who were not gay by any imagi- nation-Jan Morris is a good example-and for what? The human spirit, personality, and reality is a function of the brain not of the body-you even have to be aware of and think about the new genitals before they can mean anything. Why can't these people learn to develop their femme- selves - their reality-in their heads, in their self concept and acceptance instead of copping out to surgery?

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